Deadpool & Wolverine saved me
I’m a huge Marvel nerd. Everything was going fine until I joined college. I realized that computer engineering wasn’t for me. I wanted to drop out, but my parents said it was okay and that I should push through. Over time, my mental health got worse.
I started going to the gym and lost around 7 kg, but I was only focusing on my physical health, not my mental health. Things seemed okay for a while, but then suddenly I dropped everything. I started eating like shit, stopped going to the gym, and lost interest in everything. I felt like a walking zombie.
I fell into depression and gained around 20 kg in about three months. My final weight reached 101 kg. For nearly eight months, I lived like this.
Then the movie came out.
I asked some of my college friends to go with me, and they agreed. I watched the movie every joke landed, every dialogue hit hard, and all the action sequences were exciting. And then it hit me after the movie:
Fuck These are the things I want to live for.
Anime, games, movies these things mattered to me. That day, I promised myself that I would do this for myself, and for my friends and family. I realized I could be a hero like them not for the world, but for myself and my loved ones.
I started going to the gym again. I began meditating, journaling, and taking care of my mental health. And here I am now mentally and physically healthy.
I’m learning 3D art for VFX and game design, and so far, it’s going well. I have no backlogs in college.
So yeah… for me, Deadpool and Wolverine saved me.
I started going to the gym and lost around 7 kg, but I was only focusing on my physical health, not my mental health. Things seemed okay for a while, but then suddenly I dropped everything. I started eating like shit, stopped going to the gym, and lost interest in everything. I felt like a walking zombie.
I fell into depression and gained around 20 kg in about three months. My final weight reached 101 kg. For nearly eight months, I lived like this.
Then the movie came out.
I asked some of my college friends to go with me, and they agreed. I watched the movie every joke landed, every dialogue hit hard, and all the action sequences were exciting. And then it hit me after the movie:
Fuck These are the things I want to live for.
Anime, games, movies these things mattered to me. That day, I promised myself that I would do this for myself, and for my friends and family. I realized I could be a hero like them not for the world, but for myself and my loved ones.
I started going to the gym again. I began meditating, journaling, and taking care of my mental health. And here I am now mentally and physically healthy.
I’m learning 3D art for VFX and game design, and so far, it’s going well. I have no backlogs in college.
So yeah… for me, Deadpool and Wolverine saved me.
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Godspeed in your journey
Funnily enough, I started with Mechanical Engineering back in '09 specifically because of Ironman. It did not work out well for me at ALL. I switched majors, and so far it's worked out well for me (nearly all 13 years since).
I'm no longer an Ironman/Tony Stark aspirant. But I still get thrills from Marvel and other movies. If anything, I'm more excited for Dr. Doom than ever before, because his mystical magic + technical mechanics fits what I have to do in my own career to be truly successful - balancing the process with the "magic" of social influence and storytelling. It's a slight leap, but it fits well enough to inspire me as well.
Glad to see that D&W has had such a positive impact for you and glad to read that you've done much better since. Keep it up!
Glad to know you’re doing well in your life. I’m just 20 i still have so many things to do, and I’m really looking forward to all of them. I just love life man.
That numb to everything feeling is awful. If you’re fortunate enough to feel again you count that blessing every chance you get. Glad to see you’re doing that!
I loved D & W too by the way. It brought me so much joy. I loved that it was a swan song for some of the old heros from when I was growing up and I loved the humor even if sometimes it is beyond silly. The Madonna song at the end hit me a bit in the feels because it was so cool and fun. I know plenty of people who just didn't get it but to those of us who do it's amazing
I was at home this morning, watching YouTube on my TV, when the Deadpool & Wolverine trailer popped up. I watched it and got teary eyed, thinking about that time in my life. So I decided I’m going to share this with everyone.
What was it that changed when you were doing fine, going to the gym and eating well? You said you “dropped everything” but not why.🤷 I think that would be critical to fixing yourself, identifying specifically what the problem was. Anyway, congrats on turning things around!
I dropped everything because I was too hard on myself. My self esteem was really low. I used to think badly about myself I thought I was fat, that I didn’t have good communication skills, and that I wasn’t funny. I felt like I wasn’t making any progress. On top of that, I never really wanted to do computer science engineering. So everything crashed down on me at the same time.
I was down and unsure thought about going away. Then I discovered Thor and I'm still here.
I related to Wolverine in some ways how he let down his entire world and his friends, and how he lived with that guilt. At the same time, Wade wanted to feel more significant; he was questioning his self worth. He also hides his face behind a mask because he’s burned and that really resonated with me because of my own insecurities about my looks.
But that final sequence at the end got me incredibly excited. After the movie, I felt genuinely happy. I thought to myself If I can make money in the future I’ll be able to watch more movies in theaters and play more games. That thought alone gave me hope.
Then I started sorting things out slowly. The first week I went back to the gym. After a few days, I started reading books, and then meditation. I took small steps in every direction. Before I knew it, I felt like the happiest man alive.
I also realized that you have to drop bad habits
staying up late, endlessly scrolling reels. I deleted Instagram for eight months. I started eating healthier. Sometimes I still fall back into old habits, but I catch myself and get out of them quickly
I try not to think or talk badly about myself, even as a joke, because I know it matters. It’s simple if something is in your control, do it. If it’s not, don’t waste your energy thinking about it. Focus on the present. Thinking too much about the future creates anxiety and if you have a painful past try to leave it behind.
I think I like Yelena more than Black Widow. Thunderbolts was really good.😊
I saw this movie 4 times in theaters as my life as I had known it fell apart a few days before this cane out.
It really helped keep me grounded and here.